Last night, our friend came to stay. She introduced The Bear and I and has a special place in our family. She is brave and smart and adventurous and inspirational.
Talking over a chilli and mint lamb (yes, I'm cooking now!!), the three of us explored issues of career, working, boards etc and both Our Friend and The Bear said that they didn't like having a lot of complexity in their lives. I do.
I've been thinking about it today. Our conversation got me thinking about 'busy-ness' and filling up time with 'stuff'. This Restorative Year is supposed to be about cleaning out - physically, spiritually, karmically... and yet I'm busier than I've ever been... who would have thought that possible? Between full-time work, a double masters, sitting on four committees and the occassional piece of freelance work, this has all become a bit mad.
What I've realised today is that there are a number of 'gaps' in my life. Usually I fill them with an endless search for the perfect handbag or lipstick that stays on. However, in the Year of No Shopping, I'm left with the gaps. I've realised that I've been filling them with being busy.
IT'S NOT WORKING!!! I'm so tired I can't think straight. I'm not doing anything well and am certainly not enjoying anything. There must be a better way to do this? I do like being busy, I love having lots of things happening... but what I am doing is silly because I don't have any time to stop and smell the organic, fair-trade coffee. I don't do anything for 'me'. Why not?
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